GOLF DATE!!

So, here I am! A couple of weeks ago, a gentleman who lives at the other end of my building, but upstairs, came and introduced himself because my next door neighbor told him I was a “nice lady”. He was pleasant and we made plans to play golf the following Friday. However, the monsoons came and golf had to be postponed until today. This is what I have learned – I am not any better at this than I ever was. And, I definitely am not any more appealing to men!! To begin with, I am not nearly needy enough and this guy just ended his “last” relationship because he loved her more than she loved him. And === she was a GOLDDIGGER. Certainly, he would have to be concerned about someone who has to work. So, after golf, he was kind enough to buy me a drink – no lunch – just a drink. While having a drink, he explained how he had to go home and have a nap so he could go to his pickup joints tonight. I am certain we will play golf again because men like to have me for a friend. However, it probably wasn’t a good thing when I explained that chemistry was immediate. Needless to say, that was not subtle. OMG!! This was just golf. God forbid if I ever have a real “date”! Well, I will definitely keep you apprised of these happenings! Thanks for checking! Ricci

Moving on - I hope!!

Okay. By now, I am sure, you have expected some recovery on my part. Well, I wish I could tell you how right you are! Tuesday, it will be actually two years since Mike died. I wish I could tell you I have moved on – at least a little. However, driving 30,000 miles only served to put off going through what everyone else goes through a a lot sooner. Well folks, I am a little behind. Right now, I seem to be a little stuck – but I am trying. I even tried to sign up in grievance groups. But, they don’t make it that easy if you have to work because it seems you cannot mix and match groups. The other day, I checked the mail and found a book by Joyce Brothers, who also lost her husband. It really was a great thing to find in one’s mailbox. It was about 5 p.m., I had just finished cleaning the house top to bottom, and thought, okay, I will see what this is about. It was very educational and helpful – especially making me feel that I was not so abnormal (I had just delayed everything by driving around the country). The only difference (as was with “Eat, Pray, Love”) was that Joyce Brothers has no worries financially. Nor should she, but I wish I could write a book from the perspective of all of those of us who DO have to worry. It certainly changes your point of view!! I really am trying to move forward. I have been procrastinating on painting my bedroom (the last room needing anything done) and I managed to paint half of it! (Well, honestly, part of that is because I could either by one gallon of paint and play golf or buy enough paint and not play golf. Needless to say, I picked half the room and a round of golf!!) I am so sorry to disappoint those of you who are so kind as to keep up with me, but I really am trying and I will try to get busy. Meanwhile, I just seem to keep getting fatter and spend a great deal of time talking to myself about moving on. Will let you know – have faith. Thanks, Ricci Follow-up….Monday night I cried, bit off all of my fingernails and just felt sorrier for myself that should be legally allowed!! However, when I woke up Tuesday morning, I actually felt quite good. The crying was gone and in its place a feeling of calm and peace. For 27 years I had the nicest guy in the world, who loved me more than anything – and showed it. He died suddenly, but it was how we all would like to go, and, certainly, how he wanted to go. Anyway, Mike gave me a better sense of self than anyone ever and I will be all right. I will miss him the rest of my life – and, I guess, life is the key word. It is time to get into it while I still can. So, like it or not, dear followers, you will be hearing from me a lot more. Thanks again, Ricci